I used this blog for a while almost a year ago, after I had first moved to DC.  to DC.  I had a crush on someone who was definitely not interested in me at all.  I don’t think I made a fool of myself over him, but I wasted time liking him. I haven’t seen him forever, so it’s not even worth making a fake name for him.

In the meantime, I’ve been hooking up with another boy periodically.  We’ll call him Off and On.  It started last summer, but he had liked me for a long time before that.  I finally started liking him back in August, and we went to the beach together one weekend.  We sat on the beach in the dark and drank wine – and if you’re looking for a “get Washingtonienne into bed” plan, you can’t do better.  We almost slept together that night!  That would have been sooooo unlike me!

It’s been off and on since then, but I don’t want to go into that.  He’s behaved badly, but he’s been forgiven.  For now.

I never knew I could enjoy and look forward to sex so much.  Sex with The Ex was ok at best and unpleasant at worst.  It’s fun and exciting with Off and On.  And while he is more attractive by several times than The Ex, it’s not even that.  Because he’s not my “type,” whatever that means.  He’s just more fun.  And I just plain like him better as a person.

So last weekend he came over.  We played Trivial Pursuit and he won.  He hugged me.  I tried to resist kissing him but I couldn’t (because I didn’t want to resist, not because I didn’t want to kiss him).  There was sex, against my better judgment.

But not until we talked.  He apologized.  He said the things I needed to hear.  And it was good.  Oh my God.  When he hugged me…it felt so good, I started shaking.

So it boils down to…we’re dating.  For real this time.